Fiji Adventure

Going back and forth

Between mom’s and dad’s

Was tough.

When mom remarried

I was thrilled to have

A baby sister & a baby brother.

But the alcoholic home life

Was chaotic & confusing.

I unconsciously developed

An eating disorder

that ate away at my

Body, mind, & soul.

I spent my 20s, 30s, 40s

Stumbling around in the world

Not understanding why

I could not manage all the simple things

Everyone else was doing…

School, work, relationships, fun!

I was stuck in a chrysalis

I hated feeling broken

I hated hurting my family

I wanted the madness to end.

In an impulse

I borrowed money from a friend

And bought a flight to New Zealand

I had always dreamt of going

I had nothing to lose…

IF I CAN DO THIS

I CAN DO ANYTHING – I thought

August in Auckland

Winter in the southern hemisphere

Hmm hadn’t thought of that…

Side trip to Fiji.

Although people were so nice

I still had a hard time trusting

But they didn’t know my story

So it was easier to be me.

Chatted about life

With someone on the beach

“Be careful what you wish for”

Wasn’t sure what that meant.

Although a misguided attempt

To break free…

My experience gave me

An inner strength

That pulled me through

Many future challenges.

It took me years to learn

You can do anything

You set your mind to

So spend some time

Figuring out who you really are

And what you really want in life.

Then spread your wings

And fly beautiful butterfly.